Two days ago, I found myself "in state"; things were flying off the finger-tips and I was able to cross off about a dozen to-do's. Part of that was I was out of the apartment for quite some time and I was sitting in balance when I was getting almost ten pages of script written.
Then I stayed up late. Although I feel mostly like myself in the late hours I find that the following day lags, and by the end of the day, like tonight, I feel like I've wasted time and more importantly another day of MY life.
I've had a hard time with follow-through. Now I'm not sure if it's just that I haven't put much meaning into my deadlines or that the amount of errands and tasks I mentally build-up for myself become so monstrous that I feel paralyzed.
I hate working for someone else yet I don't feel like I know how to garner new business. I have the skills to produce and tell a story through media skills but have been so entrenched in the old-school methods of unionized shows that I feel stuck and must relearn new ways to go about blazing my own path.
Tonight, I'm making a change.
Tonight, I'm finding my own hope.
Tonight, I'm going to bed early (well, relatively)
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